I read this entirely as a fair and brutally honest self-reflection of yourself, of your ex, and of your relationship. I don’t know how you felt when you wrote this, but I must imagine that it was a sort of cathartic feeling. To be able to materialize the emotions and thoughts that you were feeling, to have an outlet to really think out loud and analyze what you want to say to the other person and to yourself, and to be brave enough to publish this for the entire world to see, to open yourself up to the chaos and danger that exists in this world, I thank you. You may believe that this has only helped you, but for people who share even a tiny bit of what you went through, this will probably help them tremendously and even assist them in getting through the hard times. Thanks for writing this!